Um, this is gonna be a long post about a stupid buyer on soompi who backed out of buying HB tickets.

So I've been trying to sell my HB tickets on soompi cause it's in the middle of midterm week. One buyer offers to buy two tickets. She confirms with me and everything. Then last week, she asks me if she can also get another ticket in the box that she's buying from. Only thing is, I already have someone else buying it. I even offered the other buyer a different seat in Garden for cheaper. Not my fault that she wanted the middle.

I find out today that I had three seats left in the box that girl wanted. I PM her asking if she still wanted those seats, and she says no. Following the Soompi rules, I inform her that I'm blacklisting her. This is what she says to me:

I was serious about purchasing tickets, and I wanted to purcahse asap! You are absolutely right that I confirmed with you, but you also stated that you would have the tickets in 2 weeks..but 2 weeks past..and NOTHING!

I also gave you suggestions on how you might be able to obtain the third ticket back..just so I can purchase with you, but you messaged me back and said you couldn't. I was even willing to pay $220 for each ticket as well! Imagine all the profit you could've made! Now, after what, a week..you contact me?? HAHA!

Anyway, if you want to blacklist me..it's all good! I still ended up getting tickets in garden box, right in the center, and for only $450 for all 3! I also didn't have to wait over 2 weeks to get it, or shell out extra fees to pay through paypal. It was a face to face transaction..quick and easy!

So regardless if you blacklist me or not..I think I ended up with the better deal! =) Besides, I'm now smart enough to know to buy tickets way in advance and through Korea Times. Therefore, I won't be looking to purchase anything from here anymore!

So go ahead and blacklist me if that will make you feel better about the situation =D I'm not the one stuck with tickets that people aren't buying..with only 2 weeks left til the concert..

Hello? I'm a college student with no car, during midterms week. It's not my fucking fault that you're not patient enough to wait for me to ask someone to pick up those tickets. We have LIVES you know.

I even ASKED the other buyer if they wanted a different seat for cheaper. It's totally bad customer service to do that, but I DID, cause you wanted it. I said I couldn't because it was TRUE. I can't give someone a different ticket when they didn't buy it. You, on the other hand, were asking for WAY too much. That was completely out of line when you asked me to get the other ticket from my buyer. If anything, that was probably the most inane thing I've heard in a long time.

I can't control the people around me. You seem to believe that everything revolves around you, and it seriously doesn't. I wasn't even planning to shell out extra fees through paypal. I'm blacklisting you because you backed out. Period. But now that you're gonna be rude about it, seems like an even better reason, don't you think?

At least I can handle myself calmly, and not like a spoiled brat. My reply?

If you'd like to rub it in my face, you can. However, if it was out of my circumstances to pick up the tickets, then I find no blame on me. I already had another buyer buying that ticket for $220, and I even offered for her cheaper tickets. It is not my fault that she wanted the center tickets. I have handled this situation calmly, and you understood that by exchanging addresses, and backing out are means for a blacklisting, per the Soompi rules.

You know what? Whatever. It's her loss.

/end rant.

Um, if you know anyone that wants Garden Box tickets for Hollywood Bowl, LET ME KNOW. (:

please get better, baby. i'm praying for you, and you know i don't do that often. i want to be there with you right now; you have no idea. i know you won't read this, but just know that i'm gonna support you, especially tonight. i WILL be there as you're writing your paper, supporting you all the way.

i love you.

Warning; this is probably going to be a long and rambling post :/

So these past few weeks, I've been feeling a lot more disconnected to my friends than usual. I mean, I've always felt as if I don't exactly "fit in" with them the way they are with each other, but I usually try to push that feeling away and interact as normal. But I guess it just hit me today that I really don't connect with more than one or two people. It's just that when I'm in a group, I feel a bit ignored, and when I do end up saying something, it doesn't completely follow the conversation at hand, and this awkward silence comes up. I feel like when I'm in the room with just another person that there's this huge chasm between us, and I feel the need to get out of the room, or to end the conversation as quickly as possible.

Today for example. I was waiting for the call to go to lunch, because we usually go as a group. I get the call, but I find out that - wow, they've already left. Without me. Mind you, this isn't the first time something like this has happened, and I usually end up having to run after them. But today, it just seemed to irk me even more, and I ended up getting pissed and not eating lunch. Yeah, I know it sounds ridiculously immature and whatnot, and it might just be heightened by PMS, but there's just something that doesn't feel right for me. There'll be times where all of my friends will be out with each other, and I only find out because there's no one left at the dorm, or through pictures on facebook or whatnot. I always feel like I find things out last minute, and that it's only because I ask them about it that I'm ever invited anywhere.

It's not just here at the dorm where I feel like this. I even feel like this back home with the friends that I've known for years. I do try to put myself out there, and to connect better, but I once again, it feels like there's something in the way. This has been going on for years - literally. Like I said before, I usually do try to push it out of my mind, but there are just some days where it's so much more oppressing than others.

Sometimes, I just feel like I want to give up on trying to connect with people. The effort that I put in never seems to have any effect, and that just discourages me. I find myself more and more isolated from people in real life, and connecting more with my computer, dramas, and the people I meet online.

It's a sad life I live. I know why I'm feeling this way. I know what I'm supposed to do to make it better. But when repeated efforts to connect and relate fail, you just want to ... give up.